Saturday, December 26, 2009

Deeper (Planetshakers)

[Verse: ]
I want to know You,
I want to hear Your voice
I want to feel You,
More than before

I want to touch You,
I want to see Your face
I want You Jesus,
More than before

[Pre-chorus:]
More of You,
Jesus I want more
More of You, My Lord

[Chorus:]
Take me deeper,
Than I’ve been before
Take me further,
God I long for more
Take me higher,
Than I’ve been before
Jesus I want more,
Jesus I need more

[Bridge:]
More of You,
More of You, Jesus
More of You,
I need more of You

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Elevate Camp 2009!

This year's XYZ Camp was not only different but anointed! Indeed, it was like what Pastor Foo had said, God is full of surprises! ELEVATE is our theme for year 2010. That's why our camp is called Elevate! It was a 4 days 3 nights camp held at Port Dickson.

16th Dec 09
It was the first day of camp. I was feeling quite tired as I didn't have a good sleep few days before. However, my heart was looking forward for camp as I know there's something great and exciting that God has installed for me. I was singing "Take Me Deeper" by City Harvest Church while going to Dream Center. After registration, I found out that I was a group leader. My instant response was, " Aww man!"- because being a leader is NOT easy! Oh well, I can't change it, so i lived with it.
*Forward to arrival in Le Paris Hotel*
We did what we had to do, lunch, check in, etc... Then, we had to prepare for talent time! I never liked Talent Time, especially when you're the leader. So, things went a little messy as usual because not only we were running out of time, we were running out of creativity. My heart was troubled, feeling stress and most of all my body was tired- I can't really focus on what my members were saying... Whatever it was, the 2 precious hours went by.
*Forward to Session 1*
I liked the worship, really moved by the song "Take me Deeper". That is when God spoke to me, " Do not worry, I am with you. Surrender all your cares to Me. The camp is not about you, it's about Me." I just surrendered all the burdens of being a games group leader to Jesus and I felt such a relief. Pastor Julie was our camp speaker! Really thank God for her! The session was clear and anointed. God just began to speak to me...
*Forward to Before Lights Out*
Ate maggee mi in my room... XD

17th Dec 09
Rise and shine!
*Forward to Session 2*
God spoke to me again. This is so awesome! Then, Pastor Julie told all of us to pair up and pray in the Spirit. Then ask God what He wants to speak to our partners through us. So, this is what I saw:
A man was holding a child's hand walking on the beach. The man was the child's father, he was playing with him. Then, the child grew up to a teenager. The man became his best friend whom the teenager can share his secrets to. I saw another scene where the teenager grew to an adult. The man became someone whom he can depend on and run to.
I know that man was Jesus. I shared this with my partner and I hope that this really meant something to him.
* Forward to games*
It was fun and quite tiring. Oh, i got to swim!!! Haha! After so long, i finally got to swim! Anyways, I got many bruises for being so careless. XD Our team got 2nd for this game! Yay! Go AON! Thank God! We had quite a lot of time, so we practiced our talent time as it was right after dinner. Things went better, more organised. XD
*Forward to Talent Time*
Wow! It was unexpected! Our team was on time and quite funny to me. We were to promote frisbee in a train station. Other groups were funny too. I like Is a Bell- so creative!
*Forward to Maggee Moments*
Some of us from The Edge gathered together and ate maggee mi. We had bonding time, just that this time we couldn't stay up too late (outdoor). Guys like teddy bears too? Lolx.

18th Dec 09
Happy Sweet Sixteen Joel!
Session 3... The presence of the Holy Spirit was just so strong!!! We spoke in tongues and just 'soaked' in the presence of the Lord.
*Forward to CSI (game) *
I found that it was really not easy to solve a case even when you watch so many CSI shows. I was trying to think what would Calleigh do. But i guess i didn't really observe what they were doing. For one thing i know that i didn't apply what i saw! They went to the crime scene first while my team went to the suspects first. So silly! We got our facts partially correct, so not too bad...
*Forward to Session 4*
This session was awesome too! God challenged me to do something, by His help, I'll do it when the time comes. Something funny happened too- i thanked God my eyes were closed.
*Forward to CG time and Maggee Moments*
We drank William's sparkling juice!!! Nice wei! Hehe... Then i ate maggee mi with the other group. haha XD Then, we talked in the room till almost 3 am... Ehehe The hotel quite scary wan lo- Don't ever go to the 10th floor- no rooms, got baby cods, got music on level 13 when no one is there!

19th Dec 09
Session 5 was a wrap up. Simple yet interesting. After that, we had prize-giving session Guess what? We got 4th place!!! Yay! Thank God! He helped me =) He's so real. Then we had photo session, quick lunch then back to church!

In church
I was so tired- should have gone back. XD

Friday, December 11, 2009

Fallin' For You by Colbie Caillat

I don’t know but, I think I maybe fallin’ for you,
Dropping so quickly, maybe I should keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I Know you better

I am trying not to tell you but I want to,
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do, I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life ,and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do, I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here, and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you, and we start to dance
All around us, I see nobody
Here in silence, It’s just you and me

I am trying not to tell you but I want to,
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do, I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life ,and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do, I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh, I just can't take it, My heart's racin'
Emotions keep spinnin' out

I’ve been spending all my time just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do, I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life ,and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do, I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it, I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it, I think I’m fallin’ for you
I can’t stop thinking about it, I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it, I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you oh,oh, oh, no, no, oh, oh, oh,oh
Oh, I'm fallin' for you

Movie Outing

Okay... I went to watch New Moon anyway...
It was not that bad... Jacob is definitely hot! I mean Taylor Lautner, he's so much better than Robert! He can act, has more emotions, more buff and the list goes on...

That's about it...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

The Edge 2009

At first when I got the invitation card to this outreach event, I was quite worried as I already had many things taking place in my holiday schedule. I didn't know what to do. But as I prayed, I found that I really wanted to go for this event as I know it'll be a great experience... So, I decided to quit a dance performance for the Christmas production. I felt really bad because I've promised my leader that I can participate but then I quit. Thank God! She blessed me to go. Really wanna appreciate her too. So, I registered myself. XD

Basically, The Edge was separated into 2 parts. The 1st part was the training (29th Nov till 2nd Dec) and the 2nd part was the outreach at Bentong, Pahang (3rd Dec till 5th Dec).

On the 22nd of Nov, we were called for a briefing together with our parents. I was like,"Okay, maybe it'll be about telling us what to bring." But it wasn't just that! They told us that we had an assignment to do. We had to raise at least RM 15 worth of food for the Orang Asli village we are going to... The thing was, we cannot use our own pocket money to buy the food and we can't ask from our parents! I was like," Okay... Crap! How was I suppose to do that?! Especially when i won't be around for the next whole week-NSCFL camp... "

23rd-28th Nov *NSCFL Camp*

Here comes 29th Nov, we had an intro for The Edge before the training starts-which was the next day... The intro got me even more excited for the whole thing! However, I haven't raised the RM 15 worth of food. But that night, I asked someone and she said she'll help! I was so happy!

The next few days of training, everyone of us had to fast at least one meal for the next 3 days before outreach. I chose LUNCH! Hungry betul! But God gave me the strength I need to go through those 3 days. I've learned a lot from the 3 days of intensive training by Jody Counts (one of the YWAMers) such as hearing from God, obeying The Word, etc. We had our last supper before we left for the outreach. Ehehe... And of course, since this whole thing involved so many days, I've met wonderful friends and got to know some people better..

At 11++ PM on Wednesday (a day before going to Pahang), I called my cousin who was going to Australia on the 5th Dec. Because I won't be back on time to send her off.. She is my dearest cousin, and that'll tell you how much I'll miss her. We chatted on the phone and turned up that God made a way where there seems to be no way for me to see her before she leaves... She came to my house at 1++ AM and slept over!!! We talked for a while then we slept. Back of my mind, I was thinking," God gave me my hearts desire!" The next morning, I had to go to Pahang, this was the funny thing- instead of me sending my cousin off, she sent me off! Haha! XOXO

I was very sleepy!!! In the van, I wanted to sleep so much but the SUN wouldn't allow me to. It was glaring at me... However, God just gave me the strength I needed. When we arrived there, we played treasure hunt. At first when the officers said treasure hunt, I was like, " What?! We'd to find papers and clues in a place we were not familiar with?" But that was not it! We were told to pray and asked God to give us a vision of someone(what the person was wearing and what the person was going through in life). "Wow! This is the Edge."

I saw an Indian woman wearing a blue top and a green bottom, bunned up her hair feeling lonely-children left her in my vision. I wasn't quite sure about it. But whatever it was, we went as a small group and started finding our 'treasures' (each looking out for each others vision). Lo and behold! I saw the woman i saw in my vision. I was so excited, I grabbed Aileen's hand and ran towards that woman who was across the busy road. We confronted her, and told her about our activity. I asked her whether she felt lonely but she said no. Then I asked her whether she had any family problems. She said her brother-in-law's children left them. "Wow!" She also had high blood pressure... So, Aileen prayed for her in BM. * By the way, all of us had to learn how to pray in BM during training. NOT EASY!*

After that incident, my faith began to rise even more! After that, we had to unpack our stuff in the place we stay- awesome scenery, very cooling-unlike PJ!!! wonderful.(except for the insects).

The next thing on schedule was going to Kg Sg Dua for Home Visitation. We had to distribute the food we'd raised to the Orang Asli.. In the same time, share our testimonies with them... It was an eye-opener! They were so friendly, especially the small kids- so pretty and cute. We got to play with them and talk to them. I met this girl called Laila. She is very cute!

*Forward to that night* Had delicious dinner! Slept... But in the middle of the night, I had a bad dream! I was mortified(terrified)! I couldn't fall back to sleep. It was like something was haunting me so badly, fear gripped me. I kept on praying but i was doubting... It was like a spiritual attack...

So glad that it was morning!!! Phew!!! We had morning devotion and intercession time. Of course we ate breakfast.. Then, we continued on with some last minute drama practice, sermon and worship practice before we left for the village we went the day before.

During the whole ministry time in th village, we played games- I could see the kids having so much fun! We sang songs like ' Anak Monyet', ' Yesus Pokok', Mukjizat Itu Nyata', Ku Mau Cinta Yesus Selamanya' etc. drama, sermon then we prayed for them in BM! It was really an awesome experince for me. After that, we said bye bye to them- so sad, really miss all of them.

Then we celebrated Marie's birthday during dinner!

We went back to our 'home'. We played Captain Ball! Seronoknya! Jean, Charis, Tim and Jody were awesome players. Of course without teamwork, it was quite impossible to win. Oh I forgot, Naomi was the semangat girl!!! Haha.. After having a good bath at night, some of us decided to stay up late. I was one of them... We had *maggee moments* and shared lots of interesting stories... The stories blown me away! I slept at 3.30PM- no dreams this time! Some of them stayed up the whole night...

All good things must come to an end... We had to leave... Quite sad but very sleepy... Ehehehe
Had a noisy time in the van... We came back at 10.30AM in DC. So semangat for XYZ...Graduated! More pictures... Then etc etc....

Living on The Edge 2009 'students' :
  1. John Stephan
  2. Joshua
  3. Joel
  4. Jean
  5. Samuel
  6. Wendy
  7. Hilary
  8. Erin
  9. Daren
  10. Timothy
  11. Benji
  12. Aileen
  13. Charis
  14. Candace
  15. Eelaine
  16. Li Yen
  17. Naomi
  18. Marie
  19. Valerie
Living on The Edge 'teachers':
  1. Jody Counts
  2. Joanna Counts
  3. Joshua Snyder
  4. Vivian Snyder
Living on The Edge 'helpers':
  1. Wai Keng
  2. Sarah
  3. Wilson
Living on The Edge kids:
  1. Sophia
  2. Faith
Sorry, I didn't bring my camera... So, can't upload them here... Pictures are in 'muka buku'.

NSCFL Camp 2009

Okay... NSCFL Camp stands for National School Christian Fellowship Leaders Camp! I've joined it together with Esther... It was a 6 days 5 nights camp held on the 23rd Nov till 28th Nov. I was actually quite excited about it.

I don't where to start... I'll just share some of the highlights of the camp. Firstly, we had school CF sessions where different CFs group together and shared the problems we face in CF. It was rather fun to hear each others ideas and discuss about them...

Then, we had Fast and Solitude on the second last day. It was so fun! Though I was hungry, God spoke into my life the things I had to deal with... After that, I felt such a relief!!! The Fasting lasted for almost 5++ hours and Solitude lasted for 4 hours!!! It was a good experience... I wrote a song too. XD

That night, we had formal night... My eyes were quite 'bengkak' ( if you're smart, you'll know why)

The next day, it was bye-bye time...

Sorry, it's kinda brief... But doesn't mean I don't remember them- It'll always be my memory..

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Looking Back...

Hmmm.... *blink blink* It's already November.. I've said it before, but i'm going to say it again- Time FLIES! I just can't imagine that things just passed so fast. One thing i know- I'm sixteen already! but i thank God things never pass me by..

January- I'm form four... Man! It's difficult...
February- Things are getting harder...
March- Girl guides camp (Relax-nya), CF camp- AWEsomely loved!
April- Permit camp (Tiring but relaxing at the same time), exams around the corner...
May-Exam already? So fast, I guess my results were fairly good-Thank God and all glory to Him and Him alone. 2nd!
June- 13th MCCC (Pretty cool), Holidays?!
July- Life's getting tougher each day, but with God's strength? I'll take back what i just said... =)
August-BK trials (Is there another word for difficult?), schedule packed!(running out of time), stepped up, BK QUIZ (1st in Central Selangor, Praise God)
September- Another week of holidays!, my sweet sixteen? XD (photos will be updated ASAP),
Finals around the corner!(Oh, crap! * cupcakes i mean)
October- Final exams. Stress, but not as stress as mid-term (funny, but it's the
truth)
November- Results (just don't compare with mid-term, i'm fine), I thank God for them anyway, without His help, I'm definitely DOOMED!, Found out something about my classmate (saddening), The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks (Inspiring...)
December- Wait! not there yet... XP

That's about it! Will always be That's in my memory... Oh by the way, i miss my friends in tuition... Weird but it's the truth...